Today I decided that I needed to write down my feelings after going to Connelly's very first parent teacher conference. Connelly has worried me since he was very young. He is such a sweet little boy, but he didn't start talking when I thought he should. After having ear tubes put in, having multiple hearing checks, and doing many many tests on Autism, (we even went to a specialist in St. George), we have come the conclusion that he's behind, but we don't know why. I was extremely glad to find out that the Autism tests were negative, and I think he's doing much better, but today was an emotional day for me, his mom. I'm the one that needs to make sure he can recognize colors. I'm the one that should be teaching him to draw a square, a triangle, and circle. I'm the one who should be teaching him to take turns and to follow directions. I'm his mom, I feel like a failure. His teacher told us she was "concerned" which is all she needed to say. I love him so much. I love his smile, his giggle, his gorgeous brown eyes. I love his excitement, his temperament, and his mischievous looks. But, to hear that his teacher is "concerned" broke my heart. He has been attending a program called "Early Intervention" to give him a little extra help with his speech and such. They have had him going twice a week and would now like to increase it to four times a week. I'm so glad that programs like this exist. Connelly is improving, but sometimes I can't understand what he's saying. He struggles with structure and his attention span seems short. Sometimes he won't answer when I call his name. His teacher did say that he doesn't need medication, so it's not as bad as it could be. Dan and I have been thinking about moving lately, and have been praying for guidance in this area. Today, after hearing about Connelly, it makes me scared to take him away from this program. I don't want him to have to get used to new a teacher, and a new environment. But, I want to move on. I know Father in Heaven will guide us to the next step. It's just hard to be in limbo about our lives. I hope I can be strong. I just love him so much!!! I just want to do what's best for him.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Parent Teacher Conference
Today I decided that I needed to write down my feelings after going to Connelly's very first parent teacher conference. Connelly has worried me since he was very young. He is such a sweet little boy, but he didn't start talking when I thought he should. After having ear tubes put in, having multiple hearing checks, and doing many many tests on Autism, (we even went to a specialist in St. George), we have come the conclusion that he's behind, but we don't know why. I was extremely glad to find out that the Autism tests were negative, and I think he's doing much better, but today was an emotional day for me, his mom. I'm the one that needs to make sure he can recognize colors. I'm the one that should be teaching him to draw a square, a triangle, and circle. I'm the one who should be teaching him to take turns and to follow directions. I'm his mom, I feel like a failure. His teacher told us she was "concerned" which is all she needed to say. I love him so much. I love his smile, his giggle, his gorgeous brown eyes. I love his excitement, his temperament, and his mischievous looks. But, to hear that his teacher is "concerned" broke my heart. He has been attending a program called "Early Intervention" to give him a little extra help with his speech and such. They have had him going twice a week and would now like to increase it to four times a week. I'm so glad that programs like this exist. Connelly is improving, but sometimes I can't understand what he's saying. He struggles with structure and his attention span seems short. Sometimes he won't answer when I call his name. His teacher did say that he doesn't need medication, so it's not as bad as it could be. Dan and I have been thinking about moving lately, and have been praying for guidance in this area. Today, after hearing about Connelly, it makes me scared to take him away from this program. I don't want him to have to get used to new a teacher, and a new environment. But, I want to move on. I know Father in Heaven will guide us to the next step. It's just hard to be in limbo about our lives. I hope I can be strong. I just love him so much!!! I just want to do what's best for him.
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Brooke you break my heart! It is awesome that you know that praying will help you the most in finding answers. Your little boy is lucky to have parents like you!! I hope everything works out for you and we'll keep you in our prayers!!
Oh, Brooke, I'm so sorry. That's so tough! It's such a good thing that we all have moms that want the best for us and love us more than anything - sometimes it's just hard to be that mom! He really is such a darling little boy! We'll be thinking of you!
I'm sure you are a WONDERFUL parent. I think every mother probably feels like they should be spending more time teaching their children. The reality is, we do what we can and make sure they know that they are loved. He is such a cute little boy and I'm sure everything will work out :)
That was a cute post. I felt my eyes watering up. Don't be stressed about your little boy. I'm sure things will work out just fine. You have the cutest little family.
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